Monday, June 27, 2011

Saying NO to Fear

Hello, good Monday morning. Today I am participating in my first ever blog link up. I have been participating in Liv Lane's e-course on How to build a blog you truly love. Today Liv is encouraging and challenging us to be authentic and brave; to post something about ourselves that maybe we wouldn't post publicly and then link up to it on Liv's blog. At first I didn't want to participate. I didn't want to put myself out there and let people in. It is one thing to write something from the heart and another to link up to it and invite the world in. I was afraid of being rejected, afraid of sounding like a fool, just plain AFRAID.
Fear!

It stops me in my tracks so often. I have lived with it my whole life and it has stopped me from experiencing so many good things. From the fear of things like sharks keeping me out of the ocean, to the fear of failure stopping me from trying new things and taking risks. I know that a lot of people experience this but I have yet to learn to move past it. I try to be rational but I always come back to feeling unworthy or feeling like I don't deserve whatever success may come my way. Who am I to start a blog, no one wants to know anything about me! Who am I to have a creative life or business, it is only a matter of time before someone figures out that I have no talent! These thoughts plaque me every time a new possibility opens up for me. I put everything on hold because I feel like I need to have all my angles covered before I dive into something new. As a result, I end up doing nothing!

When I dream of my life I am strong, confident, and I live a full life without fear standing in my way. I want to live a life that my kids can be proud of, I want to leave them a legacy where they know that they can truly do and be anything. That failure is a fact of life but if they don't try, they can never even hope to succeed.

I have been working on making these dreams come true. I AM good enough and I DO deserve to have the life I have imagined. People ARE interested in me. So, I am reading books by Brene BrownKelly Rae Roberts, and others. I am building my confidence and I am setting fear aside. I am going to push fear aside and barrel on through and come out on the other side smiling. If failure comes knocking, at least I will know that I did all I could to find success and happiness!

This post is my first step! Thanks for taking the time to stop by.

Happiness always,
Deb

Happy Birthday to my Little Man

Happy Birthday Little Man! Today you turn 6. Where has the time gone. I feel like time is going so fast. I could have sworn that just yesterday you were learning how to walk but instead, just the other week you learned to ride your bike without the training wheels. I don't remember saying that you could grow so fast. I don't want to miss a minute of your sweet life. You are the sweetest little boy in the world (I know I am biased being your mom but who can blame me). You are so full of love and generosity. Don't ever stop being like that. As you grow and life gets harder always remember to love with all of your heart. I will never tire of hearing about it or of being the recipient of your warm hugs. You make life wonderful (and challenging at times but we aren't talking about that today!). I pray that you have nothing but wonderful things in your life. I hope you have an incredible birthday! I am looking forward to spending the day together and having lunch at McDonald's (your choice).

Always remember how much I love you and how special you are. Happy Birthday Little Man. I love you more than words can say!  Love always, Mom